As a rule, writers tend to be a little on the crazy side. Forgive me for generalizing...it's just an observation I've made over the years. If it helps, I include myself among this slightly-crazy population. It isn't necessarily a bad crazy...in my opinion, the more intelligent and creative a person is, the more potential there is for crazy. How can you know all the shit you know about this world--which is, let's face it, a little f***ed up--and NOT be a little concerned about where we're all going to end up? Creative minds often wander into strange territory. You just have to be smart enough to manage it.
I think I got off fairly easy in the crazy department. When I'm being irrational, I am fully aware of said irrationality...some people aren't so lucky, and I'm grateful for this discernment ability. I just think sometimes my filter operates on a slight delay. Obviously I KNOW not all of the shit that runs through my brain is appropriate and rational. I just can't
always keep it in there. However, in most cases, I am fully functional--even moderately successful--in social situations. When I am being irrational, there is a very good reason for it, and usually the only people who are going to see it are those who are closest to me. Not everyone can plan their crazy...certainly not to the point that they're apologizing for it almost as it's happening. Would it be better if it didn't happen at all? Sure. But do I still feel like I got off relatively easy in the crazy department, all things considered? Absolutely.
I've worked in HR long enough to know that some people don't even come with a filter mechanism. It can sometimes feel a little like being a high school counselor...but that's okay, because people have always fascinated me. Obviously--I got a psych degree for a reason. In the past month, I've come to the conclusion that I really should be using it...even if it's only to help people so they don't become quite as messed up as
I am. So I applied to OU's MHR program, and was accepted...I can sit for my LPC exams through this program. I can also learn how to be a better HR person. Either way, maybe I can help someone moderate their crazy before they turn into a total train wreck. Maybe I can even learn to manage my own train-wreck moments. I've had more of them than ever in the past couple of years. It's time to pass that baton. Wish me luck.
